Ohhhh I missed that so much!
Every time I promise that I will keep writing every day and than one month passes because I can’t find the time.. Alright, this time I promise not to promise anymore, but here are my 2 cents 4 2day.
Do you know what is self-awareness? People are using this term all the time though it seems that its full meaning is unclear. For example, you woke up in the morning, standing infront of the mirror and saying to yourself – ‘Oh my god, my nose is so long / my forehead is so big / I’m ugly 2day’, does it mean that you are self aware to your look? No. That means that you are looking at the world through your fears. Being self aware means looking at those fears instead of through them. So a self aware way of looking at the mirror that morning will be more like – ‘I feel bad because I hold a belief that I’m ugly’.
It is the act of looking at your feelings in real time instead of being them.
Here is another example (With a chart!!) – 20 minutes late, You are driving your car to work, when suddenly some guy violently cuts you off. Shocked, you stop your car at once and start mumbling something like ‘Oh this f**** stupid d***a** f***, who gave you a license?!’. You are about to keep on driving again when suddenly the car behind start honking so hard, and the driver screams from the window: ‘Start moving asshole!!! I have to attend McDonalds to eat a super mega tripel double mcRoyal with some deep oiled chips in the size of a building and 2 liters of Coca-Cola! Burp’. Now you get really mad. You keep on driving incautiously to work, your face is red and your whole day looks like shit.
That was the not self-aware you, the one who was driven by his fears and feelings.
The self aware you, would immediately stop and say to himself – ‘I feel very angry right now’, thus looking at your emotions and not act through them.
But what’s the difference? Well the scientific difference is that as long as you are not self aware, meaning get angrier and angrier and not stopping to look at that, this anger shows up in the back of your brain – the unconscious one (which is about 95% of your brain size). Once you notice how angry you are, this anger moves from the unconscious part of your brain to the conscious one. Once it is there, your brain and body starts to destroy it, thus get you calm much faster. Truth is, that up until any kind of feeling gets to the conscious part of your brain – it can never leave.
You know what’s really cool about it? There is no sign of this awareness anywhere in the brain. When looking at peoples brains there is no sign of this awareness. There is a very clear seeing as the anger (or any other feeling) awakens in the unconscious part, and than at some point it moves to the conscious part, but no one have yet seen this thing which is looking at the brain from the outside and recognize the anger. Where is this awareness? Is it not included in the physical? Probably. It is higher than the brain, sees everything from the brid’s eye view. It is free of any judgement, it just looks objectively at a given situation and sees it for what it is. It is gentle omnipresent.
I like my awareness!
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